Okay, I usually not give any title in my posts except the date. Now I may give the title inside the post, not in the title box, hehe.

"My Confession"

Yaaay, tomorrow me and my friends are going to Jogja ♥ I am so excited, heheh. But, the bad news is I got headache. I've been thinking about unimportant things since this afternoon. I know, you may say, "If you know what you've been thinking are craps, then why you should think about them?" I know that, I am asking about that, too. But, it's bothering me. Who never feel sad if they lose their best friend? I meant, not losing forever, but, err... I don't know. I am falling apart now. But, I shouldn't be sad! Tomorrow, I am going to vacation! Heheh. Though, I am still frustrated with people in the house and people outside this house, I shouldn't break this great opportunity just because of these silly things, right? :D

By the way, the reason why I am falling apart is myself. I am too selfish. So, I realize that, then I  am now trying not to be angry and crying. But, those craps are still in my mind. Maybe, because of them, I got headache now. :)

Hmm... I hate opening my facebook. Because I'll be seeing them having a good conversation, and I am not. And she is changing now. She doesn't care to me like she used to do. Haha, I am being selfish again, sigh...

Yes, I have no rights to have all of her, but there's still always a jealousy come up. Yaya, if you blame me why this thing should happen, I will confess it without being told to. I've decided not to in the same room, world, and situation with her. But, I feel suck when I see them happily together with her. Because, every time I see them laugh and happy, I'll think that her place should be mine. She took it. Wait... No, I released it then she took it. Haha. But it's okay. Maybe, in this situation, I am the one who can't adapt with people around me. It may not all of the people, but only some people.

Yah, let's forget about these craps. Now, it's time to be happy and enjoy everything. Thanks for everything God, I don't want to be a hypocritical person, but it's difficult not be like that. I know it's bad, but help me to change this.