I just feel so pathetic. I couldn't go anywhere since I feel not confident enough to meet random people outside there.

- I bought a thing online last week, and it's still not delivered until now. And the seller hasn't replied my message. Am I being scammed? I don't know.

- My plan to buy my sister's gift is always delayed by other things. Maybe that's why she hates me until now. I still can't go the mall by myself, why? Read the first paragraph.

- I feel suck.

- I am not happy with myself.

- I am always a target of mockery, even by my family.

I just want to wrap myself with an invisible coat, like in Harry Potter, and hide from everyone.

Tonight I was thinking about heartache. Feel may be come from heart, but not heart in anatomically way, but whenever I feel heartache (emotionally hurt), the feeling of being squeezed so hard is come from the heart (anatomically).

Mom told me about her feeling of being ignored by my sister, A. How she never replied Mom's messages, but replied to my Father's messages instead. Btw, she did the same thing to me, not reply my message.
I feel sorry for Mom, because of that, she feels that her own daughter, who has been ignoring Mom since she was in JHS, dislikes her in that way.
I feel tired of her behaviour too. Should she regret when Mom is no longer here?

I feel suck.