Happy Birthday to Me

I mean happy belated birthday to me. The most boring birthday ever.

It feels bad when you have waited one year to be in your special day and it turned out that almost none of your "best-friends" realized.

I kept doing my best to make it perfect for them although I was often late. But at least, I sent them a message. I was too stupid to keep making efforts to make them happy while they actually never try to do the same.
Not because I demanded as a little princess to be treated well. But, best friends, when you never ask it, they will keep doing it anyway.

But wait... I think I am the only one who think they are my best friends while they are not. Classic me... Keep concluding just from my side.

And my Dad is very kind... He gave me new cell phone since the last one was totally dead.

My Bday was same as my cousin. She was made a cake to celebrate her birthday in her kindergarten. When I see the cake I just felt sad.

I know that I am now 20 years old. But that little thing will make my day. And just now I asked my Mom, where's the cake for me... And she said she hasn't bought it yet... And I ran into my room and cried. I am still crying now... I feel sorry to myself that I am so childish and pathetic.
My sister usually does a little surprise, but now I still hasn't seen any of surprise... I have been so stupid by coming into my room so many times since yesterday ans today just to find a gift, but no. Stupid.

Thats all... i am too tired write..