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mentally-ill

Tuesday, January 10, 2023 • 15:49 • 0 comments

i dont know, suddenly many topics in mind that i wanna write

so, since i often like depressed sad, even motivation quote, theres a page that was in my fyp, its a girl with severe depression.

of course i checked her page, since she was kinda vocal about her symptom. no, she wasnt a motivator of mental illness or something, she was just a young girl who always told the audience about how she felt at the moment, especially whenever her symptoms appeared

i am wondering from other's pov about depression. since i am kinda afraid that i just "make" this idea, maybe i am not depressed at all, i am just a spoiled girl like he always told me.

so, back to the topic, she went studying at itb, smart, artsy as well. ah, she had bipolar. her room was a mess, like mine lol, years before i was a super tidy girl, i miss myself so much huhu. and we could call her like a wibu or something, no judging here, since i had wibu friends before, they were usually act pervy 😬, but they were also super kind as well. this tiktok gurl liked wearing lolita dresses to uni... like literally bright color dresses, high stocking, with that kind of shoes. tbh, i like that kind of dresses, but if i had ones, i still prefer to wear them at home. but for her, nope.

she had this two color of hair, such a characteristic of bipolar ones. not only bipolar, the mentally illness ones usually have unique hair.

in my pov, i craved for having a long hair for so long. but since depression hit in, i couldnt take care of it huhu, so i often cut it until this short. and coloring it gave such a unique joy.

annnd this tiktok gurl was hospitalized at rsj, which i think the one i did coass there lol. she told the audience she kept screaming and crying, and nurses, idk the docs too i guess, were giving up on her, and she... rejected... from the hospital.... 😬

and she put her twitter profile, and the tweets are kinda disturbing to read.

yup, thats it. thats her pov, some are related some are not, since i am not diagnosed to have bipolar i guess

but mental health really matters. please dont give up on me. me, i wanna be a normal person like i have felt at the first month of taking meds. i never feel it again until now 😭