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HAVE A NICE DAY PEOPLE!

I am so happy today. Wish this happiness will be forever in my heart. For you all guys as well. Let's enjoy every second of our life y'all!

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✿ Hello there! I own this blog ✿

Well, hello there! I don't know whether you are mistaken in finding some blogs until you are able to come here or you actually want to visit mine! Hehehe... （*´▽｀*） Actually, I made this blog as a private journal, however I don't lock it (｡･ω･｡)ﾉ Let's see who the real stalker who can find my secret blog! (｡-_-｡ )人( ｡-_-｡) Hahaha, just kidding! ヽ(o´∀｀o)ノ Oh, well, here's my favorite thing: I love him （〃・・〃）♥ Well, 'cause you're already here, you get my permission to read my random things during my unstable life! Here's a cup of coffee for brightening your day! -> Hahaha... Bye. ♥～(‘▽^人)

Alone or Lonely?

Friday, January 24, 2014 • 19:50 • 0 comments

Now, I know how being lonely is. Lonely is different from alone. For me, being alone is a moment where no one is literally around you, and there will be someone accompany you soon. But, being lonely, is a moment when people are around, but no one accompanies you and you don't know whether there will be people come up to you.

Like, no one. No one. I feel like being killed inside just because there's no one for me now. At least, if there's somebody sits next to me now, it will be enough for me.

I don't know, I feel like in a depressed state since I gain A LOT. I keep being trapped in obesity. Sometimes, I just wanna go out, float, and combine into air, leaving my body. I leave my burdens mentally and physically from my shoulders, and feel fresh and clear.

I do sins a lot. I feel like my heart is filled by darkness and have a black color. I keep thinking of myself wash my heart, but the color doesn't turn into the pure one. It is still black. I think it sums up of my desperation. I don't know if I am able to free myself from this obesity that has been torturing me in my whole life. I have been teased by people since I was in a very young age. I don't know, I think it has broken my heart and my mind ever since.

I can feel my condition is worsening from time to time. I now feel like hard to breathe. Not severe, but I can feel that.

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