Labels: College, Life

Aaaaaah fukc it! I don't know if android blogger won't save my writing if I do multitasking! (>_<) It doesn't even save it into a freaking draft! Aaaaargh.... e_e

Okay, well, you can see the title above that I was happy before finding out that my writing wasn't saved! :-(

Well, yeah, today, this Sunday I was invinted to my teacher's relative's house.

Firstly, the former plan seemed to really work for me. My Teacher (MT) said that she would pick me up at 12.30 pm in our campus. I actually planned to park my car there, but suddenly, the planned was changed! MT said that she couldn't pick me up, so that my seniors would pick me up instead.

MT and my seniors texted me even MT called me around 7.39 but I didn't answer them, guess what, I was still freaking sleeping!!! X﹏X Yeah, the shame on me like T-Swift has sung in her song. To be honest, I couldn't sleep at the night before so I watched Running Man all night long. (≧﹏≦)

Thus, I decided to go there by myself (alone). So, today was filled by some fun things, they are:

♡ I drove a car by myself to a place which the way to reach there I barely remembered.
♡ I faced so many freaking traffic jams, but I could be totally calmed and controllable.
♡ I was in a victory feeling for being able to beat my procrastination. =)
♡ I finally made it there without being lost!
♡ We're scheduled to be there at 13.00 pm and I arrived 13.05 pm.
♡ I ate lots of great food MT and her friend served. Delicious! :9
♡ Meet great people, including my seniors and dr. Y :-D
♡ I got some motivations when I listened thr conversations between MT, dr. Y, and my seniors.
♡ I could turn my car quite well when I went home.

The last but not least! :;(∩´﹏`∩);: ♥: *drums*

♡ I was finally able to use an alternative way so that I could go home faster! o(^^o) [btw, the road is pretty dangerous, that's why I never used that alternative way before.]

That's all for today! By the way, tomorrow I am gonna go to a place, I forget what it's called. Something ends with -land, where there would be many games can be played. Hopefully, everything's gonna be fun! =) ♥

G'nite! <(⊙▽⊙)/ ★♡

Labels: Angry, Blogging, College, Happy, Holidays

I just took a sleeping pill. Well, I really do want to be able to sleep tonight that's why.

Oh, this morning I woke up around 1.15 am after trying really hard to sleep around 10.00 pm. I freaking hated myself for not being  able to sleep, so that I got headache. Instead of closing my eyes and getting no result, I started watching Get Him to Greek, and I just realized that it's a sequel of Forgetting Sarah Marshall which was really fun to watch. Unfortunately, I haven't finished watching the movie until 6 am. So I took a bath, prepared everything for meeting my teacher, and done!

I have a thought of driving a car myself, but, later I found out that my brother was planning to go too, and brought the car. He wanted to go at 9 am. I wanted to go with him, so I texted my teacher, apologizing for being late. At first, I was actually scared of being late, but my teacher who was already there with my two seniors, were okay with that. I found out that my teacher was in a rush to go to a hospital, and she told me to have a talk with my seniors. So, when I arrived, she left hehehe :-D

My seniors are absolutely kind and beautiful, they were really patient in telling me what the task that my teacher gave.

I called my brother that I was already finished, [what a quick meeting! :-)] and asked how if we exchanged an error harddisk to its factory through someone who worked doing that and lived near my university [which my brother and I already planned to meet him for a long time].

While I was waiting for my brother to pick me up, I met some friends who were doing the remedial in the building. I don't know how, but one of my friends and I ended up having a talk about wrong friends we get from the first class we had. She shared her depression stories. From the story, I can conclude that she got severe depression. I was already through that time, and I can say that I was quite depressed as her, but more her. So, I could understand what she felt. In my posts, I have mentioned directly or indirectly about wanting to commit suicide in my depression time.

I am a person who is really hard to give any advice to my new friends. I mean, if I have been really close enough to them for a long time, I can be brave enough to tell them that what she has done might be wrong so most of people will judge her that way, etc. I still feel like an outsider for her, so I just listened to her, share mine (though I didn't give her any detail of my problems). Sadly, our conversation was cut because my brother already arrived to pick me. Be strong my friend! ;-)

You know, if we don't have a strong faith, we can be toyed by life when it brings us up and down. What we actually have to do is BEING THE CONTROLLER OF OURSELVES so that we won't be toyed by life that easy.

Hope Allah will give us the best. Aamiin...

Labels: College, Friends, Motivation, Movie, sad

I don't know, I am kinda missing my old room. Anyway, I am in my room right now. But, my old room looks nicer than now, haha. Now, it's such a messy room. Things just don't in their places. Anyway, I am no in the mood to fix and clean everything. Why? Cause I am going to move to a rented-room near my college. It's hard to leave this house. Life is tough, dudes.

Labels: College, Life, Motivation, sad, School, Spirit

I've taken several tests in the web when I searched about bipolar thingy. I got the web that served several tests about bipolar. I absolutely know that it might not be true unless we meet the professional one, the website also says so...

I took two tests: bipolar and depression.

My result was...

Bipolar: I got in the middle of the rank, which was ... bipolar likely
Depression: I got the freaking second rank! (Actually, I wasn't that shocked, I thought I knew the result wouldn't be good.)

They suggest me to see the professional ones. But, no freaking waaay!

I think I am now being a high temper person. I am just having to deal with the emotions that are formulated inside my brain. I don't know why... Maybe, the whole situations that have happened around me lately have pretty much changed me. I don't know...

It's just really difficult to control myself, especially my mind that will create a trigger to make me angry again, again and again. That's what I've been dealing until now. I've been hating my brother, I hate the way he eats, the way he breathes, everything he does in my Mom's home is never ever making me happy for him to be there. He's one of the factor for creating a person like me. He's pretty much ruined my life and personality. Thanks, Bro! He might not know the reason why, because, only me and my Lord who know. Yeah, absolutely, I can guarantee that no one knows except me and my Allah.

The only help I have to myself is me. Praying well is the best solution actually.

When I read some articles about the alter egos, I may have some alter egos. But, what I've been regretting, I may have chosen the wrong one since I go to the college.

I got migraine a lot. Moreover, in my period time. I was dying for more than 7 days during my period.
But, I was kinda sad with my one of best friends in the college. I had a plan of buying something from her and she might want me to get the thing and pay immediately. Yeah, she might need the money, but, when I said that I might not come to an event... Instead of wishing me to get well, she just texted "Ih...."

TO BE HONEST, I was sad and lost a little bit of respect to her. I love her as my best friend, but why... Only why. I didn't crave of the attention, but that time was a tough time for me. I got a heavy migraine, (the second day of period) it was totally killing me. Moreover, my Mom wasn't around. She was far away---accompanying my sister, a-mother-wanna-be. My body temperature was really high, I seemed to get a fever. Even the medication pills couldn't get the rid of the pain completely.

Usually, the pain will go completely after I take them and take a nap. But, at my period time, the pain will appeared only in one side of my head, as the time went on, the pain would be in my entire head. I even couldn't stand up without the pain would be like pushing my brain to a one spot.
Even when I take the pills and take a nap, the result wouldn't be satisfying. I would wake up with having a migraine in a little spot in my head. Maybe the pills can't handle all the pains.

Yeah... You know, the point was, the pain was bad. Totally bad. I want to curse how bad it is, actually. But, I think, it's not a wise thing to do. By the way, I still love my friend though I won't be forgetting the text that she sent to me as a reply.

Labels: Angry, College, Friends, Life, sad

Labels: College, Life, Motivation, Spirit

Good Morning! Now it's 9.16 am. At 13.00 I have a schedule--a tutorial. And I haven't studied or found anything to help me in the tutorial. Ok ok, I am gonna do it soon...  (•‾ε‾•) Lol.

Well, this early morning, I made a schedule for myself and planned everything to support my study. Hopefully, everything can be done as they've been planned. (◕‿◕✿) 

Labels: College, Dreams, Futures, Life, Morning, Spirit

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